Be good to ya self!

Dear Diary,
I know, I did it again. I fell off the face of the earth. Listen, life has been one big roller coaster ride and it was really hard to jump off. I was enjoying the freedom, the wind in my hair and the giant waves of uncertainty and excited squeamish sounds coming from my mouth. Life has been weirdly awesome.
Like for instance… my husband and I, we somehow found ourselves back in the honeymoon stage. I’m not complaining. I think sometimes in relationships things get in the way, and the minute you pump the breaks, reality crashes right into you. We needed a re-set and we got one. A GOOD ONE.
Also… you know I’m finishing my semester in college and preparing to transfer to a university which is a huge thing in itself, because after working 40 hours a week and tackling on 15 credit hours this semester, I was pretty much useless. If your name wasn’t my husbands, my daughters or the name of homework, you were pretty much non existent to me. Not because I don’t love you or anything… but because I seriously had NO TIME. (To my BFF’s who totally have my back on this, my gosh I love you more than donuts and chocolate… and you know those are my ultimate faves!)
I had to sort myself out, my life out before I could you know get back to the things that make me happy, like typing whatever pops into my head and adding it to this little corner of the inter web I call my blog. It’s all about being good to yourself… and taking time off was exactly that for me.
But I am back in full swing. I don’t know where the heck this diary is going to take me or what direction I want to go, I just know that I’m gonna do stuff with it, because
1. It’s cheaper than therapy
2. It’s a great way to document what’s going on
So my beautiful people… I got some other fun stuff to share with you… but that will have to wait. I heart you as much as confetti… which btw I freaking love.

Fleeting Moment

Dear Diary,

She woke up and curled into my chest. “Mom, wake up, it’s not night time anymore.” I squeezed her in close and kissed her cheek and said, “Good morning beautiful.” She giggled, and between hugs and kisses, we bounced up ready to conquer the day. After all, we had a serious play date with playdoh and barbie.

The house came alive, and we were all awake, breakfast was made and served, coffee was drank and orange juice was enjoyed out of a princess Sophia’s big girl cup. Our morning was perfect.

As we let our imaginations run wild, making a beautiful mess of the toy box, she looked up and in that second I knew that it was nap time. Her normal routine of walking to her bedroom, climbing up her step stool and cuddling up with her pink stuffed yeti was sure to follow, but instead, she walked over to me and said “mommy, will you rock me?”

An overwhelming emotion came over me and tears began to swell in my eyes. I immediately scooped her up and rocked her. She hardly could fit in my arms, and in that moment I let the tears roll down my face. As her eyes began to close, I could feel her snuggling deeper into me. I didn’t want to put her down. I was reminded in that moment, that life is but a fleeting moment. It feels like only yesterday I held her for the very first time, and now I live for the moments that she lets me hold her.

Today was my last day of vacation, and it was the best 2 weeks off I’ve ever had. No lavish vacations, no crazy adventures, just one on one time with the love of my life, my little girl. I cannot begin to explain how motherhood has changed me, but I hope that with time, I can collect my thoughts and my memories so that I can always look back on these precious moments.

Today was a good day, no… today was a great day.