I am nervous. There I said it. It’s more like an excited nervous like somebody pinch me, oh my gosh I can’t believe this is happening and in less than a week. My life has gone through many changes, quick changes from left to right. I am one to go with the flow, and truly believe that what happens in life, happens for a reason. I can’t tell you why it took me so long to go back to college, or why I choose the major I am in, but what I can tell you is that my life led me to this point.
They say life is about finding yourself, but I’m all about creating yourself. Life comes at you, fast. There is no escaping it, we are forced to make choices every single day and some days are harder than others. Two years ago, when I decided to go back to school, it was more of a feeling. I thought to myself, is this it? Is this as far as I am going to go in my life and career? I looked around, and although I was blessed to have a job and a roof over my head, I truly believed that there was so much more. I didn’t want to wait for life to happen, I wanted my life to begin.
You can imagine how hard it’s been working full-time and going to school full time as well, it’s been the hardest balancing act of my life. There would be nights I cried myself to sleep because I was so disappointed in missing out on my daughters day and endless tears because I missed my husband so deeply, that I questioned myself every day, I always prayed and asked for peace. Slowly my fears and anxieties vanished, and there was joy in the chaos. My husband and my daughter loved me every single day and supported me through it all. I couldn’t have asked for a better support system.
Now that those two tough years are behind me, I’m ready to embark on the remaining two. Only this time, things are going to be a little bit different. I have always believed that we should never burn bridges, and although I no longer work at my full-time employment due to conflict of scheduling, I have been given the gift of flexibility from a previous job to work from home while going to school. It is a blessing! They say when one door closes, a window opens (or another one always opens) and it’s true. It really is. Sometimes we don’t always see the silver lining, but it’s there waiting for us to reach out and take it.
Next week another round of chaos begins, a new job, a summer semester and I honestly can’t wait. I’m only that much closer to reaching the finish line… let the adventure begin.
For those who have come to my painting classes at the studio, I will still be teaching those as well. 🙂 I can’t stop doing what I love.